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Scream....

*Screams and pounds head against wall* ahh yes... dramatic opening eh? In fact, it leaves you breathless... waiting for the rest of the morbid tale that is sure to follow. Alas, no morbid tale other than that I DID IT AGAIN! Yes, I did! Did what?!?!?! you say. Quietly I mutter, " Oh I just neglected my poor little blog once again. I let it get lonely. " *sigh* dramatics. But... I did scream. Inside my heart. A little while ago. Called, Monday morning....

It is a dark and dismal morning. ( In the mind of  our heroine ?! ok whatever ) The sun is not shining because (surprise surprise) it is 5 a.m. The girl awakes and sits up looking and feeling quite disheveled. After a minutes pondering she emphatically decides she will NOT get up this morning. PosiTIVELY not. Thank you very much... She smacks back against her warm pillow and closes her eyes. However, whether it is by a force of nature, or some other power she is up two minutes later getting ready to go to her job. Still feeling bedraggled and half asleep and with a severe case of pwg (pre work grouchiness) she shuffles downstairs, grabs a bagel, her lunch and is out the door. She heads to her car and turns the key in the ignition. Prepare for take off right? She takes off... only to be jarred from a dopey state of mind to a shocking awareness by the CRASSHHHHH that occurs five seconds after take off. Her reflexes are very slow this morning so it is only after the crash that she hits the break. While the crash is occuring she has this slow motion warped vision of airbags blowing up and the whole front of car smoking, thankfully, after the car has reversed and been put into park further investigation shows that only the front left bumper has been smashed in nicely. For in fact the man of the house had the parked the duramax and the trailer in the circle drive the previous evening... and in the muddled state of condition the girl had not noticed. Screams in the heart were apparent as she tripped inside to fill the folks in on the happenings.... but alls well ends well.... the folks were jus glad nothing worse happened and a very alert young lady drove to work that morning.

    Lol so that was the happenings of that morning. I was very disturbed about it for the rest of the morning but than randomly the thought occured to me later that day that, what if, perhaps, I would have drove to work in a dazed and tired state of mind, and something far worse would have happened? Made me actually half thankful... lol wow. Later dear peoples. comments are appreciated. :)

His Plan

Living life. Life is so amazing. Life hands us so many things. So much joy. wonderstruckness :) so many things. When life is joyful and sparkling and fun and happy we are happy. We love life... or at least I do. But unfortunately or (on the other hand) fortunately life does not hand happiness to us on a silver platter. The real Happiness is God. and when things don't go my way is when i need to focus on the Plan, when I need to focus on the Maker of Happiness. Although Life throws curveballs at us at times it is essential to remember that God always sees the bigger scope. We cannot always see His Plan and it takes an enduring trust to continue. God has a beautiful ending for our story, but only if we let Him write it. And it takes humbleness to let Him write it. I want to think that I can write my story. I want to think that I can start and end each chapter. and... to a certain extent i can. But the author is not me.... no it is God or the Evil One. Who am I, who are YOU letting write your story?  To be able to trust God so infinitely that He writes my story in the completeness would be wonderful. I try. but. it is hard. why not tho? why not give Him full ownership and control of the Pen? Let Him write your story. I want to.because, He has created me. So, He has also created, His Plan...

WANTED....

Wanted: a guest writer

Yes, i want someone to guest post. soooo let it be known and I'll work it out! yay! :) bring it on!

I DONT WANNA BE A NUGGET...

This little guy is so adorable. I feel for him i do. Somedays i feel like this little chicky and feel like I am running around not wanting to be a nugget or watever else i don't want to be at the moment. a piece of randumness for sure.

melancholy...

tonight is a melancholy night. unmotivational. just saying. i feel like uncapitalized letters... and random sentences. short. random. words. Really what i want to do is go outside. in the rain. and sit there underneath an umbrella all by myself. and think. and think. and ponder life. and just exist.  why not?! it sounds lovely. to escape all complications. miscommunications. misunderstandings. to sit and listen to the rain.
adios....





this post had no point other than to ramble... lol :)

Happy Birthdayyyyy!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday to you,

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday dear bloggy!!!!!

happy birthday to you.

With a flourish the candles are blown out and the clapping begins. yes we are celebrating a few days off. The actual 1st Blogoversery/ birthday for bloggy was on the 12th. But we celebrate today. :) Lovely. Blogs are fun eh? In this last year there are...... 46 posts... or something like that. Nice. but. there should be more. Next year..... there WILL be more :) with these thoughts, happy birthday!!!! :)

And here.... are some of my favorite posts of the year. If you wish to check them out that is all grand and wonderful... :)

Purple Pebbles: Surrendering a Dream...

this post still means a lot to me. I can still feel how i felt at that moment. and if i may say so myself.... i think its one of my better :)

Purple Pebbles: ...Fireflies...

i loves them fireflies :)

Purple Pebbles: ...Disturbing...

i guess this post always cracks me up... :)

annnd thats my three favorite... what were your favorite posts of the year? let me know :) later dear people!!!!!!!!