Who God Wants Me To Be

I have not quit blogging... I just didn't for a month. This month has been interesting for me. I feel like this month was a month of learning, of growth?!? Of discovering myself. Do you ever wake up in life and realize that you have become a cliche? That you have become what other people want you to be, and not what God wants you to be?! Do you ever wake up and realize that you are just not... you?!? I did. A month ago in fact. I literally "woke up" and with a shock, the startling realization hit me, that I did not know "me". It scared me. Truly. I tried to think about how I was, how I felt, what I liked... and sadly it dawned on me, that I was ruling myself out, that when I made choices it was more as if, what will "they" think. This is sounding all about me. Yes, but no. God is definitely in this. Yes, I believe that while I DO want to know about what me likes, it is more important that I know what God wants me to do, how He wants me to live. In the business of life, I feel like i was leaving that precious important part out. How does it happen? God is so ingrained in my life, yet somehow the true worldly, selfish "me" takes over and transforms me into, "everyone elses me". Do I make sense? Or, is this clear as mud?! So, this last month, I pretty much cut out all email, blog, twitter, social life online in other words. My texting life became less priority. I read God's Word more. I thought more. Pondered life more. Prayed more. I feel like I got to know me. God's me. I can now say I am more carefree, I can laugh without inhibition. I treasure every single friend more. It becomes easier to enjoy the smaller things in life. In fact, the small things in life are partly what make me the happiest. I care what people think, but remain true to the God's me. I feel inspired. I love more. I speak more positively. God has given me a new fresh confidence.  I can say that truly. I. Am. Living. Life. I am living God's Life.

Life...

Life is just so awesome right now! :) The sun is shining and it's absolutely gorgeous outside right now! Today our youth are going to go play softball and have discada for supper... a farewell for one of our youth guys... (he's leaving for Haiti for 2 years and I am SO JEALOUS :) ) Life is just so awesome, phenomenal, superb, extensively cool... does that make sense? I'll pretend it does ;) I guess I kinda feel that life is slowly slowly getting to be... under control. Under control? No... I am not in control, but I feel like well, you ever have those times when everything in life jus starts... clicking into place? Or so it seems... I feel like life is more organized now... :) And I am even making progress on my Resolutions! yay! :) A grand feeling. PLUS SPRING HAS SPRUNG! and that makes life even happier... along with the fact that Easter is tomorrow. The older I get, the more I think about Easter... THE Easter story... God's unimagineable, out-of-our-comprehension love! It makes everything about life... the joys, the sad parts all seem so trivial. Not? It does for  me... when I think of His incredible Plan! Life. Is. So. Amazing! :) I have had my ramble now... yay! bye... till tomorrow!

P.S. plus now that my life is more in place..... I'll have a little more time to post :)

Spring....

SPRING IS HERE AND I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!! lol excuse the excessive use of caps lock and exclamation marks. :) But, I must admit once again.... I am excited! :) I go outside and it's so beautifully warm. Like it's in the 70s Fahrenheit which for you Canadians would be about 22. Blue skies, the spring peepers, the birds singing, the warm rains, the warm warm sun, the gorgeous magnolia bushes, and flowers, the way it smells after a rainstorm. All things that I love love love about spring. :) Truly. Looking outside makes me extremely happy inside. Not that I was unhappy to begin with. :) But yeah, it's just phenomenal! I like winter, because it always ALWAYS makes me appreciate the beauty and wonderfulness of spring. um, I love spring peoples.... got that? lol What do u love about spring? Tell meee! :)


And this cute little saying that I saw on a Mary Engelbriet calendar: Life Is Just So Daily. Isn't it rather true? Some days I just get that "so Daily" feeling. lol  Not today though because it's Spring!

Oh also, by the way, here is a wonderful post that you should check out if you have not already... and the rest of the blog too! The post is called  the Quiet....  It's wonderful!

until next time... :)