Surprise

Surprise ahhh yes it is a surprise to me too methinks! A post.... oohlala. And a year later at that... So much has happened in the last year! Truly I'm not even sure where to begin anymore. I guess the best I can do is update you on the current events of me and not bother with the rest :) Three months ago I moved from beautiful Ohio to the middle of the usa... Kansas. Yes why would you ever leave Ohio for KANSAS everyone here asks. Lol. And than I kinda do this little chuckley thing . Really I myself am not exactly zure why but currently I am a cna at Bethel Home in Montezuma, Kansas. A very small town in western kansas. BH ( as I will most likely commonly refer to it ) is a long term care facility cor the elderly... guess I personally like that a bit better than the term of hursing home lol... and it is quite a lovely place to work at too I must say. :) I love my job and I love my residents... how awesome is that :) I am now. Year older ... 20 and in my 21st year.. ackkkk how scary is that I think but hey somehow I manage to stay sane and it works quite grandly . I find it intriguing that no matter how much older I get I still feel like that 18 year old me. I hVe a black honda civic coupe now and it has the amazing name of ... Beezus. After beezus and ramona uou see... hehe rather cute I admittedly think ;) ahh me this is a rather strange little post I must say but nonetheless I am rezolved to give my hand to blogging once again... whether anyone reads this I have no clue. But quite honestly... I dont really even care :) Its just a nice outlet for all those thoughts that never get out otherwise so comment if u still come here... and if I am alone here thN I will blog quits happily :) adios till next time!!!

A ps...nexcuse odd words or letters.. I have yet to get a legit keyboard for my tablet yet so it does odd things every now and than.. :)

Please sign this...

this is a true petition from a church family... please take the time to review.. thank you

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Dear friends,

I wanted to let you know about a new petition I created on We the People, a new feature on WhiteHouse.gov, and ask for your support. Will you add your name to mine? If this petition gets 100,000 signatures by February 21, 2013, the White House will review it and respond!

We the People allows anyone to create and sign petitions asking the Obama Administration to take action on a range of issues. If a petition gets enough support, the Obama Administration will issue an official response.

You can view and sign the petition here:

http://wh.gov/yITo

Here's some more information about this petition:

Help us! Shannon Kauffman had the courage to flee a country that would not protect her 3 children from a violent father!

Incarcerated because she dared to flee, with legal passports & full custody. Shannon Kauffman, a 35 yr old mother with 3 beautiful children tried to find safety in U.S.A.. Her ex-husband who violently abused her, & mentally, emotionally, & physically abused her children. Every emergency protection order and court orders to keep him away did not work. Still he would stalk & hurt them. He is clinically diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder, psychopathic behavior, abusive alcoholism. Now she is in prison for taking her children out of the country. Her children have been sentenced to go alone, to a foster care in Canada. They are terrified they will have to contact with their father. While their loving, good mother awaits trial in a prison. We plead to keep them safe in Ky with Family.  I am her sister and Shannon is a GOOD mom She loves her children dearly. please help us. Thank you, S.H.

And a Happy New Years!!! :)

Happppy New Years to you! :) A new year is such a happy thing. :) Truly! I mean really! A whole new fresh year that you can fill with AHmazing  new deliciously epic ( I HAD to use it ) memories! Last year was wonderful! No joke. I mean seriously. :) It had to be one of the best years of my life. So many wonderful things that happened! I got to go to Haiti for two weeks. I got to go to Saskatchewan for two weeks! I discovered how insanely amazing my friends actually are, a freaking awesome summer. :) I made so many insanely amazing friends. :) No kidn! And I can truly say that God has been with me this last year. Closer than ever before. I will also say I had the worst month of my life. I mean not to be morbid, but, I did. But in a way it was good for me. Because even though it was the worst time in my life and I did become bitter over things, it was good for me, because it helped me to see later how awesome my God is... because He could have left me in the hole I was in. Because I was bitter at Him. And I did not want to think about Him and yet... He stayed there.
    Sorry... I got off topic kindofish but.... that's that! I'm so stoked bout this next year. :) Because... I know it holds grand times for me. :) Kina scary... I am actually turning 20 this year. And that IS scary. I mean it's the end of one of the biggest most life changing phases of my life, so far. What will happen this next year, is terrifying if I dwell upon it, but really exciting at the same time. :) I can't wait....

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,

"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans

to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11

Just saying...

Man, right now I am in-thee-mood for butterflies and for hot summer days. I want watermelon and Oceans and such. Just saying... Plus!!!! I bought a unicorn cookie cutter the other day! :) A grand lil guy it is! I am now in the mood for unicorn cookies... :) Just saying... It's a sparkly wintry beeeyouteeful day outside and I'm sitting inside quite glad I am comfortably out of the wild snowglobe. I'm still thinking about Eragorn and Saphira and Elvish lands and such things... I got to go home from work early today, 2 1/2 hours early at that! :) But it took me an 50 minutes to get home instead of 18... the roads were so snowcovered and yick-like.  Just saying... My favorite color is still blue... and I am wondering if I can go a whole entire year without carbonated drinks like i will endeavor to come January 1. I WILL miss that Diet Coke, and the Red Bull! I am pretty stoked about going to the beach twice next year Also maybe I am kina realizing that my grammar is atrocious on this post but who cares... And I am posting with the regularity of  a Blue Hippo showing up at my door... Lol but I doooo not lack inspiration... I have a million post pilin up in my brain... And i have satisfied my craving of jellybeans for a few weeks... as I ate a ton of those yummy lil guys just yesterday... today is lovelyish in a quiet hermity kind of way... :) I is Just sayin.... thats all :) :)

The Christmas Story

A very wonderful Christmas to all! This Christmas has meant something different to me than other before. We all think about the beginning of the Christmas story, but what about the end? No, I am not talking about the journey back to Nazareth, but rather about the Journey to Golgotha. I have been reading the book of Matthew recently, with different eyes. It felt like I was living along with it. Watching Him grow up as a child, taking on His Father's work... I was growing closer as I watched events unfolding, one by one. The healings physical and spiritual, the miracles, the showing of infinite unmatchless Love. Than they took Him into captivity, mocked Him, SPIT on Him! They degraded Him.... the Innocent. And He took it all. Without retaliation. And than He died... and bore our sins. He BORE our sins. He took upon Himself the blame, the humiliation, the shame, the sinfulness, the wretchedness of OUR sins, and not just one persons. Take all the people who ever lived and will live, take all that sin, allll the blame, humiliating wretchedness, shame, take it all and put it together on one Man. That's what Jesus did, for me. He did it for you. As this came clearly to my eyes... I felt so unworthy. Jesus did it for me. And in turn we have the gift, The Gift of Salvation. Can I actually accept it? Can I actually receive it, the Gift of Forgiveness, Acceptance, from Him? Please do. Accept and think on the best Christmas Gift of all. On His Birth, He began to give us.... The Ultimate Gift.
To me, THIS is the Christmas Story.

ack

ack i am so disturbed! somehow my blog totally got screwed up with the whole layout soooo this is... under construction sadly.... hope it looks right before long. laters.

Scream....

*Screams and pounds head against wall* ahh yes... dramatic opening eh? In fact, it leaves you breathless... waiting for the rest of the morbid tale that is sure to follow. Alas, no morbid tale other than that I DID IT AGAIN! Yes, I did! Did what?!?!?! you say. Quietly I mutter, " Oh I just neglected my poor little blog once again. I let it get lonely. " *sigh* dramatics. But... I did scream. Inside my heart. A little while ago. Called, Monday morning....

It is a dark and dismal morning. ( In the mind of  our heroine ?! ok whatever ) The sun is not shining because (surprise surprise) it is 5 a.m. The girl awakes and sits up looking and feeling quite disheveled. After a minutes pondering she emphatically decides she will NOT get up this morning. PosiTIVELY not. Thank you very much... She smacks back against her warm pillow and closes her eyes. However, whether it is by a force of nature, or some other power she is up two minutes later getting ready to go to her job. Still feeling bedraggled and half asleep and with a severe case of pwg (pre work grouchiness) she shuffles downstairs, grabs a bagel, her lunch and is out the door. She heads to her car and turns the key in the ignition. Prepare for take off right? She takes off... only to be jarred from a dopey state of mind to a shocking awareness by the CRASSHHHHH that occurs five seconds after take off. Her reflexes are very slow this morning so it is only after the crash that she hits the break. While the crash is occuring she has this slow motion warped vision of airbags blowing up and the whole front of car smoking, thankfully, after the car has reversed and been put into park further investigation shows that only the front left bumper has been smashed in nicely. For in fact the man of the house had the parked the duramax and the trailer in the circle drive the previous evening... and in the muddled state of condition the girl had not noticed. Screams in the heart were apparent as she tripped inside to fill the folks in on the happenings.... but alls well ends well.... the folks were jus glad nothing worse happened and a very alert young lady drove to work that morning.

    Lol so that was the happenings of that morning. I was very disturbed about it for the rest of the morning but than randomly the thought occured to me later that day that, what if, perhaps, I would have drove to work in a dazed and tired state of mind, and something far worse would have happened? Made me actually half thankful... lol wow. Later dear peoples. comments are appreciated. :)

His Plan

Living life. Life is so amazing. Life hands us so many things. So much joy. wonderstruckness :) so many things. When life is joyful and sparkling and fun and happy we are happy. We love life... or at least I do. But unfortunately or (on the other hand) fortunately life does not hand happiness to us on a silver platter. The real Happiness is God. and when things don't go my way is when i need to focus on the Plan, when I need to focus on the Maker of Happiness. Although Life throws curveballs at us at times it is essential to remember that God always sees the bigger scope. We cannot always see His Plan and it takes an enduring trust to continue. God has a beautiful ending for our story, but only if we let Him write it. And it takes humbleness to let Him write it. I want to think that I can write my story. I want to think that I can start and end each chapter. and... to a certain extent i can. But the author is not me.... no it is God or the Evil One. Who am I, who are YOU letting write your story?  To be able to trust God so infinitely that He writes my story in the completeness would be wonderful. I try. but. it is hard. why not tho? why not give Him full ownership and control of the Pen? Let Him write your story. I want to.because, He has created me. So, He has also created, His Plan...

WANTED....

Wanted: a guest writer

Yes, i want someone to guest post. soooo let it be known and I'll work it out! yay! :) bring it on!

I DONT WANNA BE A NUGGET...

This little guy is so adorable. I feel for him i do. Somedays i feel like this little chicky and feel like I am running around not wanting to be a nugget or watever else i don't want to be at the moment. a piece of randumness for sure.

melancholy...

tonight is a melancholy night. unmotivational. just saying. i feel like uncapitalized letters... and random sentences. short. random. words. Really what i want to do is go outside. in the rain. and sit there underneath an umbrella all by myself. and think. and think. and ponder life. and just exist.  why not?! it sounds lovely. to escape all complications. miscommunications. misunderstandings. to sit and listen to the rain.
adios....





this post had no point other than to ramble... lol :)

Happy Birthdayyyyy!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday to you,

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday dear bloggy!!!!!

happy birthday to you.

With a flourish the candles are blown out and the clapping begins. yes we are celebrating a few days off. The actual 1st Blogoversery/ birthday for bloggy was on the 12th. But we celebrate today. :) Lovely. Blogs are fun eh? In this last year there are...... 46 posts... or something like that. Nice. but. there should be more. Next year..... there WILL be more :) with these thoughts, happy birthday!!!! :)

And here.... are some of my favorite posts of the year. If you wish to check them out that is all grand and wonderful... :)

Purple Pebbles: Surrendering a Dream...

this post still means a lot to me. I can still feel how i felt at that moment. and if i may say so myself.... i think its one of my better :)

Purple Pebbles: ...Fireflies...

i loves them fireflies :)

Purple Pebbles: ...Disturbing...

i guess this post always cracks me up... :)

annnd thats my three favorite... what were your favorite posts of the year? let me know :) later dear people!!!!!!!!

11 things...

I got tagged byyyyy Mismatched Socks ! yay! :) and the rules to this lil thingamajig is....

1. You must post eleven random facts about yourself.

2. You must also answer the eleven questions the awarder has given you and make up eleven questions for your awardees to answer in turn. 

3. Tag eleven fellow bloggers. 

4. Notify them that you've awarded them. 

5. No tagging back.

6. The eleven blogs you tag must have less than 200 followers.

Yay. so first off eleven epic things about me. Wait... epic? ok watever :)

1. I love blue... and i mean seriously. anything blue. or any shade. i luv.

2. Politics interest me in an insane kina way. This whole presidential campaign stuff thats been going on has kept me on my toes. 

3. My bedroom is painted a brilliant deep aqua. surpriseeeee anyone :)

4. I am wearing a lime green dress right now. yay for lime green. another color of 

beautifulness :)

5. my favorite number is.... *drumroll* 17! :) yay!

6. one of my pet peeves is when someone looks at my screen while im texting or chatting

7. I have a penguin. a stuffed one. from my friend emmy. its name is mr. popper. and he is my bestie buddie. so there. that is a fact about me :)

8. i have traveled to 8 places this year. michigan, haiti, saskatchewan, manitoba, georgia, georgia again, pennsylvania, ontario. and i'm not done yet this year. i have 2 more places yet.

9. I love sweaters and hoodies and shoes.... i have at least 20 of first two and over 40 of latter

10. my favorite author is john grisham

11. and i hate..... lots of things. snakes mainly

now for  the questions.... aughhhhh

1. Sparkle or shine

ohhhh definitely sparkle. luvvv them sparkles we do! sparkly shoes and sweaters and wallets and cards and decorative balls and watches and other fingses

2. If you had the chance to go anywhere on earth where would it be?

gotttta say europe! :) i wanna go to europe for 6 months please. amen

3. Which is cuter? penguins or pandas?

ohhh so hard. umm i think i hafta say pandas. gotta luvvvv them penguins tho! i have the cutest penguin ever. as afore mentioned his name is mr. popper. and i luv that guy.

4. What is your favorite movie? *series*

yuck. dont ask me that. i luvd luvd LOTR ok so not a series but watevr.

5. Without looking it up what is Mark Twains real name?

ummm samuel clemens.... i think.  aha i googled it. i was right. me likes.

6. Would you rather live in the city or the country?

wellllll you see i live in the country an i love it but i would rather be in the city. give me nyc. or wdc. or some major city.

7. What's your middle name?

very exotic. Cleopatra. gertrude. Anastasia. ok its dawn. i confess :)

8. Airplanes or boats?

airplanes.. flap flap i love tht flying :)

9. Do you have a teddy bear?

no but i have a STUFFED PENGUIN!!!!! :)

10. Have you been to missouri?

yes yes yes :)

11. Where was the last place you met someone knew?

ummmm georgia. epic times it was.

and nowwwwwwwwwwww myyyy eleven questions :) yay

1. what is your favorite kind of food?

2. if you could be any animal for a month which one would you be?

3. why did the chicken cross the road? really?

4. the most exciting thing you have ever done is?

5. shoes? or sweaters?

6. whats the first thing you think of when someone screams OMGOODNESS NOOOOO!

7. spiders or snakes?

8. what is one thing that should be banned from this earth?

9. chicy or funky? and why?

10. what is the biggest and best thing in your life that you are looking forward to at this present moment?

11. given the chance, what person would you be with for a day? dead or alive that is :)

at lastttt it is done!  AND THE PEOPLE I NOW SHALL TAG AREEEEE.... (btw there are not 11 people for me to tag to be content)

AmBeR

Kate

Nancy

Natalie

Sheri

behold...

behold.... a post. a POST!!!!!!! after 2 months of no blogging. alas... lol no I was not dead, I was busy, uninspired, etc. no excuse have I except the fact i was lazy. *grimaces* I have taken the blog up with vigor. or so it feels. :) my main inspiration wasss.... Jonni. well plus i had inspiration. but yeah jonni i myself was wondering um perhaps if I should delete my blog than i saw your comment... and tada here i am. :) I now resolve to keep this lil guy goin here and not run dead on posts. I have every weekend till January planned (yes you saw right) but I think I can keep this goin :) wish me luck people. I will now do something that i hate but is necassary. I call it.... pleading for comments. lol. or watevr. I like to know how I'm posting sooo please comment whether its positive OR negative. the negative helps. promise. :) thanx! yes. this was no inspirational post but they are coming... :) until later....

Impossible things.... random items

Dear bloggies I have missed you! and I have now traveled many places which i never have been before. :) Soooo this is not going to be a longgggggggggg epistle about my trip... perhaps that will come later. I am simply saying hey! I have not forgotten you. Plus i had no internet during my time spent away from home! sad story. My children were the wonderfullest little people, and I loved them so much! :) Oh so sad to see them go! I gonna sign off with a small excerpt from Alice In Wonderland that I happen to love!

"There is no use trying" said Alice; "one can't believe impossible things."

"I dare say you haven't had much pracice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."

~Lewis Carrol~

I love that.... believing six impossible things before breakfast!

cheeers!

Independence Day

 Happy July 4th to all! :) Happy Birthday to the United States of America!

Remembering all those who died and gave of their time for our country! The great sacrifice given and gift of freedom we have, because of they.

"And I'm proud to be an American,

where at least I know I'm free.

And I wont forget the men who died,

Who gave that right to me"

~Lee Greenwood (God Bless the U.S.A.

Meet Me In the Stairwell

~Stacey Randall~

                           You say you will never forget where you were when 
                                  you heard the news On September 11, 2001. 
                                                                Neither will I. 

I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room 
with a man who called his wife to say 'Good-Bye.' I 
held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the 
peace to say, 'Honey, I am not going to make it, but it 
is OK..I am ready to go.' 

I was with his wife when he called as she fed 
breakfast to their children. I held her up as she 
tried to understand his words and as she realized 

he wasn't coming home that night.

I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a 

woman cried out to Me for help. 'I have been 
knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!' I said. 
'Of course I will show you the way home - only 
believe in Me now.' 

I was at the base of the building with the Priest 
ministering to the injured and devastated souls. 
I took him home to tend to his Flock in Heaven. He 

heard my voice and answered. 

I was on all four of those planes, in every seat,
with every prayer. I was with the crew as they
were overtaken. I was in the very hearts of the
believers there, comforting and assuring them that their
faith has saved them. I was in Texas , Virginia , California , Michigan , Afghanistan . 
I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news. 
Did you sense Me? 

I want you to know that I saw every face. I knew 
every name - though not all knew Me. Some met Me 
for the first time on the 86th floor. 

Some sought Me with their last breath. 
Some couldn't hear Me calling to them through the 
smoke and flames; 'Come to Me... this way... take 
my hand.' Some chose, for the final time, to ignore Me. 
But, I was there. 

I did not place you in the Tower that day. You
may not know why, but I do. However, if you were
there in that explosive moment in time, would you have
reached for Me?

Sept. 11, 2001, was not the end of the journey
for you. But someday your journey will end. And I
will be there for you as well. Seek Me now while I may
be found. Then, at any moment, you know you are
'ready to go.'

I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.

God 

Freedom from fear, freedom, of speech, freedom, from want, freedom of worship. Of these I am tremendously thankful. I'm so thankful that I can worship my Mighty God without the fear of persecution. Free to express my thoughts, though they may not always be in agreement with others. Freedom. I tend to forget what I have. All I can say is thanks to God for what I have!

Friends...

Friends just make life worth while! 100%. I just within the last 5 minutes had an overwhelming appreciation for my epic (yes the word fits) friends! Why? Most likely because today I was feeling a wee bit discouraged with life, and thinking negative thoughts ( which I am ashamed of :-[ ), when a few of my friends started texting me, one called, etc. It totally brightened my day, cheered me up, made me stoked about my wonderful life, and left me feeling happy! Yes, I have a wonderful life! I do! When I think of allll the poverty and of all the circumstances that I am not faced with, it makes me thankful. Thankfulness makes me feel positive and happy! No joke! I have amazing, understanding parents, a summer filled with fun things, and friends. Without friends, my life WOULD be dull! So if you are one of my friends, you are greatly loved and appreciated :) And especially if you are one of the friends that brightened my day! :) :) :) :) thanx! :) luvvly peoples you all are! :)


** this was not intended, in fact I had another post all written but this one came to my mind instead! :) till next time!

Yay I'm so excited!

so i have something incredibly fun going on this sumemr! :) I. am. going. to. saskatchewan. for 11 days! YAY! excitement fills me! yes. :) I am going to bredenbury to teach a Bible School for 5 days... in the community of Bangor! and the 3 days after I get to spend in Roblin, Manitoba and see my dear friend and her husband whom I have not met! yay I am so excited! Fireworks tonight... were so awesome! Yay! went with some of my friends... :) so the fourth is next week! I. AM. SO. PUMPED! lol. my life is full of joy! yay! awesome friends, awesome places to go. awesome times! yesss and I ammm excited. lol as you can see. please excuse the mispellings, the uncapitalizations the mistakes etc!

New Look... plus I need Help!!!!

Lol ok that's obviously a strange title. But yes, observe the obvious! New look, all around! YAY! And guess what else?! I definitely like this look only 100 times better than the way it was before! Yes I want your input. I am going to be so bold as to demand your input lol. Yes. If you, in anyway shape or form read this post I hereby obligate you to please leave a comment  and tell answer the following questions. #1. Do you like the new look better? #2. Do you have any suggestions in any changes I should make? etc. I want to know if the colors or fonts are hard to read etc. or just help. I am not very good at this you see. :) Oh plus, I would like to create a button. And I have no idea how to go about.... help anyone?
     Plus I need more Help!!!!
And this comes in the way of Blogging. I am uninspired, rather, with things to Blog about. Yes but no! Somehow inspiration always ALWAYS hits at the most inconvenient times. Sad story. And than I can never quite get my thoughts down as they should which results in a half written post with lame cliche phrases etc. Is it just me, or do I sense a Uninspirational virus penetrating the world of blog? Lol... ok so I just happen to see here and there my dear bloggy friends saying "I'm uninspired" "help meeee" heheh. I am one of those. Oh yes I love blogging... Maybe I just do need help. So I also want you to tell me... YES YOU lol... what can I write/post to make this more interesting?! Or is it a lost cause? I rather hope not. No you are not under obligation to help me here but it is much appreciated. Thanks you! More shall come! Once again! I do now beg, beg, beg you for feedback! Hear Hear!!!!
adios amigos.... :)

Surrendering a Dream...

Struggling,

       Crying.

                      Reaching...

Reaching for that,

That which is beyond my reach.

It's there... sparkling, beckoning,

calling my name,

yet, as I,

Hopefully,

   Reach for it.

It slips elusively, from

my fingertips.

Grazing them with an enchanting

touch.

Once I held this dream. 

This beautiful dream.

Consisting of a colorful ambrosia, of

everything sweet. It held

also

        pain...

               tears...

It held a future.

Once I held this dream...

possessively, not without

utmost care... yet,

it slipped,

from my grasp.

so quietly.

I'm on this road,

this rocky trail, through a jungle of

dark thoughts, hopelessly

entangled with bright

memories.

always whispering to me,

feeding my mind with,

forgotten laughter, 

fragments of sparkling remembrances,

a time that is only to be dashed,

in a million

pieces.

My dream lies before me, so tantalizing,

yet I want to

cry, to

      give up 

this road.

Than, I look up.

and see Him. HE!

who clears an overgrown

path. 

He calls, and the sweet tones

caress my tired ears.

He asks me to trust

my dream to Him. He

promises to care for it.

Carefully.

I give it to Him, tears streaking

my cheeks. And I

walk beside Him, down a path,

void of troublesome thoughts...

yes

My dream is there. 

my hope.

It lies ahead,

always

it beckons me...

yet, I am content to leave,

It in my Fathers 

care.

I wrote this a while back in a notebook of mine, as I experienced this. And came across it today. I hope this can be an inspiration to someone somewhere. 

...au revoir...