behold...

behold.... a post. a POST!!!!!!! after 2 months of no blogging. alas... lol no I was not dead, I was busy, uninspired, etc. no excuse have I except the fact i was lazy. *grimaces* I have taken the blog up with vigor. or so it feels. :) my main inspiration wasss.... Jonni. well plus i had inspiration. but yeah jonni i myself was wondering um perhaps if I should delete my blog than i saw your comment... and tada here i am. :) I now resolve to keep this lil guy goin here and not run dead on posts. I have every weekend till January planned (yes you saw right) but I think I can keep this goin :) wish me luck people. I will now do something that i hate but is necassary. I call it.... pleading for comments. lol. or watevr. I like to know how I'm posting sooo please comment whether its positive OR negative. the negative helps. promise. :) thanx! yes. this was no inspirational post but they are coming... :) until later....

Impossible things.... random items

Dear bloggies I have missed you! and I have now traveled many places which i never have been before. :) Soooo this is not going to be a longgggggggggg epistle about my trip... perhaps that will come later. I am simply saying hey! I have not forgotten you. Plus i had no internet during my time spent away from home! sad story. My children were the wonderfullest little people, and I loved them so much! :) Oh so sad to see them go! I gonna sign off with a small excerpt from Alice In Wonderland that I happen to love!

"There is no use trying" said Alice; "one can't believe impossible things."

"I dare say you haven't had much pracice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."

~Lewis Carrol~

I love that.... believing six impossible things before breakfast!

cheeers!

Independence Day

 Happy July 4th to all! :) Happy Birthday to the United States of America!

Remembering all those who died and gave of their time for our country! The great sacrifice given and gift of freedom we have, because of they.

"And I'm proud to be an American,

where at least I know I'm free.

And I wont forget the men who died,

Who gave that right to me"

~Lee Greenwood (God Bless the U.S.A.

Meet Me In the Stairwell

~Stacey Randall~

                           You say you will never forget where you were when 
                                  you heard the news On September 11, 2001. 
                                                                Neither will I. 

I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room 
with a man who called his wife to say 'Good-Bye.' I 
held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the 
peace to say, 'Honey, I am not going to make it, but it 
is OK..I am ready to go.' 

I was with his wife when he called as she fed 
breakfast to their children. I held her up as she 
tried to understand his words and as she realized 

he wasn't coming home that night.

I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a 

woman cried out to Me for help. 'I have been 
knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!' I said. 
'Of course I will show you the way home - only 
believe in Me now.' 

I was at the base of the building with the Priest 
ministering to the injured and devastated souls. 
I took him home to tend to his Flock in Heaven. He 

heard my voice and answered. 

I was on all four of those planes, in every seat,
with every prayer. I was with the crew as they
were overtaken. I was in the very hearts of the
believers there, comforting and assuring them that their
faith has saved them. I was in Texas , Virginia , California , Michigan , Afghanistan . 
I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news. 
Did you sense Me? 

I want you to know that I saw every face. I knew 
every name - though not all knew Me. Some met Me 
for the first time on the 86th floor. 

Some sought Me with their last breath. 
Some couldn't hear Me calling to them through the 
smoke and flames; 'Come to Me... this way... take 
my hand.' Some chose, for the final time, to ignore Me. 
But, I was there. 

I did not place you in the Tower that day. You
may not know why, but I do. However, if you were
there in that explosive moment in time, would you have
reached for Me?

Sept. 11, 2001, was not the end of the journey
for you. But someday your journey will end. And I
will be there for you as well. Seek Me now while I may
be found. Then, at any moment, you know you are
'ready to go.'

I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.

God 

Freedom from fear, freedom, of speech, freedom, from want, freedom of worship. Of these I am tremendously thankful. I'm so thankful that I can worship my Mighty God without the fear of persecution. Free to express my thoughts, though they may not always be in agreement with others. Freedom. I tend to forget what I have. All I can say is thanks to God for what I have!

Friends...

Friends just make life worth while! 100%. I just within the last 5 minutes had an overwhelming appreciation for my epic (yes the word fits) friends! Why? Most likely because today I was feeling a wee bit discouraged with life, and thinking negative thoughts ( which I am ashamed of :-[ ), when a few of my friends started texting me, one called, etc. It totally brightened my day, cheered me up, made me stoked about my wonderful life, and left me feeling happy! Yes, I have a wonderful life! I do! When I think of allll the poverty and of all the circumstances that I am not faced with, it makes me thankful. Thankfulness makes me feel positive and happy! No joke! I have amazing, understanding parents, a summer filled with fun things, and friends. Without friends, my life WOULD be dull! So if you are one of my friends, you are greatly loved and appreciated :) And especially if you are one of the friends that brightened my day! :) :) :) :) thanx! :) luvvly peoples you all are! :)


** this was not intended, in fact I had another post all written but this one came to my mind instead! :) till next time!

Yay I'm so excited!

so i have something incredibly fun going on this sumemr! :) I. am. going. to. saskatchewan. for 11 days! YAY! excitement fills me! yes. :) I am going to bredenbury to teach a Bible School for 5 days... in the community of Bangor! and the 3 days after I get to spend in Roblin, Manitoba and see my dear friend and her husband whom I have not met! yay I am so excited! Fireworks tonight... were so awesome! Yay! went with some of my friends... :) so the fourth is next week! I. AM. SO. PUMPED! lol. my life is full of joy! yay! awesome friends, awesome places to go. awesome times! yesss and I ammm excited. lol as you can see. please excuse the mispellings, the uncapitalizations the mistakes etc!

New Look... plus I need Help!!!!

Lol ok that's obviously a strange title. But yes, observe the obvious! New look, all around! YAY! And guess what else?! I definitely like this look only 100 times better than the way it was before! Yes I want your input. I am going to be so bold as to demand your input lol. Yes. If you, in anyway shape or form read this post I hereby obligate you to please leave a comment  and tell answer the following questions. #1. Do you like the new look better? #2. Do you have any suggestions in any changes I should make? etc. I want to know if the colors or fonts are hard to read etc. or just help. I am not very good at this you see. :) Oh plus, I would like to create a button. And I have no idea how to go about.... help anyone?
     Plus I need more Help!!!!
And this comes in the way of Blogging. I am uninspired, rather, with things to Blog about. Yes but no! Somehow inspiration always ALWAYS hits at the most inconvenient times. Sad story. And than I can never quite get my thoughts down as they should which results in a half written post with lame cliche phrases etc. Is it just me, or do I sense a Uninspirational virus penetrating the world of blog? Lol... ok so I just happen to see here and there my dear bloggy friends saying "I'm uninspired" "help meeee" heheh. I am one of those. Oh yes I love blogging... Maybe I just do need help. So I also want you to tell me... YES YOU lol... what can I write/post to make this more interesting?! Or is it a lost cause? I rather hope not. No you are not under obligation to help me here but it is much appreciated. Thanks you! More shall come! Once again! I do now beg, beg, beg you for feedback! Hear Hear!!!!
adios amigos.... :)

Surrendering a Dream...

Struggling,

       Crying.

                      Reaching...

Reaching for that,

That which is beyond my reach.

It's there... sparkling, beckoning,

calling my name,

yet, as I,

Hopefully,

   Reach for it.

It slips elusively, from

my fingertips.

Grazing them with an enchanting

touch.

Once I held this dream. 

This beautiful dream.

Consisting of a colorful ambrosia, of

everything sweet. It held

also

        pain...

               tears...

It held a future.

Once I held this dream...

possessively, not without

utmost care... yet,

it slipped,

from my grasp.

so quietly.

I'm on this road,

this rocky trail, through a jungle of

dark thoughts, hopelessly

entangled with bright

memories.

always whispering to me,

feeding my mind with,

forgotten laughter, 

fragments of sparkling remembrances,

a time that is only to be dashed,

in a million

pieces.

My dream lies before me, so tantalizing,

yet I want to

cry, to

      give up 

this road.

Than, I look up.

and see Him. HE!

who clears an overgrown

path. 

He calls, and the sweet tones

caress my tired ears.

He asks me to trust

my dream to Him. He

promises to care for it.

Carefully.

I give it to Him, tears streaking

my cheeks. And I

walk beside Him, down a path,

void of troublesome thoughts...

yes

My dream is there. 

my hope.

It lies ahead,

always

it beckons me...

yet, I am content to leave,

It in my Fathers 

care.

I wrote this a while back in a notebook of mine, as I experienced this. And came across it today. I hope this can be an inspiration to someone somewhere. 

...au revoir...